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Its time for Fall, my daughters favorite season because of the crunchy leaves... It is also when children are all back in school all over this country. It was one of my favorite times of year as well. I made some of my closest relationships in this season, maybe the crispness of the air makes me more outgoing. Either way, I'm feeling nostalgic, missing the simplicity of life in all its true colors. The falling curtain of those who would try to be who they are not and the ties that wither down to nothing. just like mother nature we also wither and die this season.. relationships become distant summer friends become forgetful and life goes on... Will those roots you planted this summer fall away to the strength of autumn? I hope not, but know its the one who plants the seed that does the care taking, but the seed itself finds nourishment from all around.

patience

please have patience with those you love and those who love you. Sometimes words get lost in transmission.. use inclusive words like we us and ours and stay away from defensive body language. we are all part of one another... so you hurt yourself when you hurt your brother.

Feeling Great

Working out.. focusing on whats important. ME!! Oh yeah... Life is something else isnt it? I dont even care anymore that the GOV is controlling weather with the HAARP system, or that Majesty 12 is communicating with ET and lying their ass of to us, I stopped caring about the eugenics and inoculations, I am not even concerned anymore with the artificial womb that US has most people under. I am happy to be alive today. I am happy to be with my family and friends that are true and love me.. Yea the world is in a crisis.. when is it not... take a pill of fuck it all and be happy with what you got... 

My Life chapter 1

where are we to go. 28 yrs old and I've seen it all. 10 yrs from now I'll be writing about things I've just experienced. The repetitiveness I imagine is what makes me hardened to so many groups of experiences that it just seems like I've seen  it all. I saw the outcome before,  so really I know all the possible routes it could have took to get there. Its a curse and a blessing and a taunting jester. Its why my patience has grown thin and my love has grown stronger. This past year has been the best and worst yrs of my life because it always seems to work out that way. I have to feel the high before I know I'm crashing, and damn was I crashing. How funny is it when you watch your own life unravel as if you yourself were a bystander. And even in times where I had experienced advice to offer I did not step in to help me out of this one. I wanted it in a secretive way, I wanted to know what defeat felt like. Its insanely like love, a rollercoaster of courage, fear, determination and hopelessness. Its thought consuming and self destructive by any means necessary.  The power of it along with the new sensations sent me into a world I had forgotten existed. Defeat showed me life for what it really is for so many around me and us that I literally had an emotional breakdown, I cried for them and myself and more for myself for knowing I could feel self-pity and then more so for those who can feel self-pity often. I was distraught at the ignorance of authority, the desensitaion of spirituality, the godlessness in the world I occupy. I am non religious but believe that all religions derive from the similar truth no matter how they word it. I believe in God, the Alpha and the Omega. So much of what been written has been taken out of context that trying to re explain will be murderous to literature and reputation. I will quote scripture in writing and paraphrase in conversation but that is not contradictory to my dislike of religion, what I dislike about religion is the organization that re interprets in order to keep religion current therefore adapting God to us and forgetting how to adapt to God.  This is not by far a tale on religion or belief, but my beliefs are what lead me to right this piece.

I remember my birth, instant and know ledged. Programmed for lack of a better word to know of my existence and all that existed before me which were many in many leagues and ranks. Programmed we were, all of us to watch, to know and never forget until we forget but then its never forgotten is it? I was and am an entity all to myself connected to all but independent unto myself. I was all and all was me and I never diminished. I watched as he mathematically dissected his strengths and weaknesses and divided those parts while he himself maintained the essence but diminished and diminished. I watched emotions that and no names and behaviors that made no gestures. I knew because I knew and pain is not a mutation just like lust is not either. Inherent in we are what inherent in him. How would you react if you were all knowing. Would you not have many routes to the same end. Maybe every possible route that could ever be taken. Is that not what omnipotent is. The term is God wills it. Yes he wills for you to have a chance in life so he created and willed every possible outcome to every possible decision you could make. They say God is a just and loving God. That is what is said but not what is taught to be believed. God is just, he gave every individual human being free will, the ability to make a decision and learn not be taught but learn and be closer to god through knowledge and experience of that that is him. God is also loving so in not breaking his promise of free will he wills and manifest every possible life thread for every soul that is of his essence. Heaven is not a place in the skies but a plane of existence that only God has arrived to. Ascension is not physical but relative and all planes exist together with or without your awareness of them. God is in everything but God doesn't give a damn if you're having financial problems. If you call on the name of your faith as a creation of his image you have the power to will finances into your life.  if you call in spite anger or spite, you curse only yourself and create your own fate ironically following the exact script your cursing. I am ahead of where I started by many a millennia, but time is irrelevant as is beauty, in the eye of the beholder.

I watched the even split three ways with a remainder of one. A divine energy source divided by he, his replicas the aloha, and his spiritual wife the earth. In her evolving and his devolving a rational thought occurred to us all more like a realization than programmed knowledge. Surprise was felt and ''memories'' were felt like fires that wash over entire forest. There was two of us in each of us, He knew but did not know but found it in himself and duplicated himself in three parts which is mathematically impossible but is it if it was done. Argue it with in yourself if you doubt it, but I will move on now as I will in the future of this memoirs. SO there she is, we are, he was, he lost and he found again, she who only he knows and even she is discovering herself. it was 33 goddess, 33 offspring, 34 God. As the goddess grew and accepted its self as a living entity occupying more than one plane of existence, she created of her own make and will, life. The chaos and confusion the peace and the harmony and the overall innate knowledge of circle or cycle. The importance of equality and duality and fertility. She was the wisdom of God. She knew where it all went wrong and knew exactly how to fix it. She knew all along and patiently observed and created and willed the combination of all her wisdom, his wisdom, our wisdom into divine creation. The earth has healing powers, she exists as we exists as bacteria exist as God exists. And she created Man. What w process to watch and understand and redefine our own understanding of him and us but feeling at a complete indifference through watching for we all knew like she knew and he knew that his will be done. This is a plan set in motion by one for many to enjoy what only one has accomplished. Divinity. A birth right to man, but a right never exercised. The plan is not concrete but flexible and impromptu and designed and planned since the beginning. Not here nor there, not anymore at least. Man evolved, like he was supposed to and God gave our final one percent to ATOM and created Adam and so it goes.

Man was amazing, deciphering himself before he or she, and colonized the stars leaving behind his pride and her spite. Leaving us all behind to explore all that man can and will  be and taking with him the last godly being and stripping us all of our essence and instilling our HUMANITY. 

It was a hell of a time to have an epiphany. It really was HELL indeed. How quickly a year can go and how eternal any individual second could feel like. It was hot, as miserable as any misery could feel like, and amplified by my own rendition of miserable like a stroke of genius only to be recognized centuries from now as a man who had a vision of greatness. I am not vangogh, I am not Michelangelo, I am both artist and sculptor, reader and writer, constant and variable. I can carry the weight of the world like Atlas and know that Atlas was no God but Godly enough. I have always known my strengths yet never knew my weaknesses, aware of them yes, but I never knew them in that intimate way a husband knows his lover. I had been in the US Army then, with the same God-less unit that I entered that was once only a purgatory that accepted Gods will. In Jan of the same year six months prior to my end, my battalion went through a healing that allowed many of its prisoners free. Those slots though needed to be filled by the next group that had in one way or another earned this fate, and though most of the slots were filled by newcomers to our perdition, some of us were fortunate enough to be hand selected to achieve deliverance this cycle. The problem with purgatory is simply that you are your own worst enemy. No one hates you more than you do, and those that love you can not overshadow the ill you wish on yourself through pride, selfishness, greed, lust, desire, and best or worst depending on perception VANITY. Oh yes, God is a jealous God. Why else do you think you even poses the ability to be self-centered you ignoramus. See that, even in passing insult I praise he that made we by condemning you to your own mortality. Yes we are vain. Out of Vanity we were made and that is in fact like Alpacino in the Devils Advocate 'My favorite sin'

I felt it necessary to admit my stance in advance, this is not an open debate ,it is my thoughts and my  perspective. This is my story. Vigorous the Master, Son, brother, friend , lover, uncle, father, husband, and author of my life.

I have to start with what convinced me to write this, its not so much the beginning, but the beginning of  the end. And then at last a new beginning to  redefine the world as I knew it.   I had been in the US military for quite some time at this point… Its needless to say that every military experience helped shape my outlook on many of my convictions I carry with me now.  I will not go into extreme detail about this chapter in my life this time around, but I will explain enough to get to this past year as those events took place…  I had before the military been experienced enough. An experience I failed to achieve was failure. Every decision I made, good or bad in hindsight, was a decision I made and willingly accepted the wealth and the spoils. I made tons of bad decisions , that I learned from and were no longer a bad situation and never a regret.  I have made considerable growth over the years and I know it was not through training but will power and self belief. I never lost even in a losing fight. I never saw myself losing… So it never happened. Even as I joined the military I knew it was not for me, it was going to be a test and I would see if I could pass it.  It was only a matter of time I cautioned myself. I was so in tune with myself that I lost touch on others perspectives and realized I needed to reconnect on a deeper level. So I placed myself with the ones who actively sought help and joined the military.   Myself not excluded it takes a certain type of person to join the military. It takes a person with no direction, no desires or wants, it’s a first choice or a last resort. It takes a person with built up passion and will power. The ideas that stand behind the military of any nation come from the ranks of angels who understood order. It comes from a utopian people that knew strength in numbers and uniformity. That is the fundamental stance of any military, but mankind has changed on a global level and can no longer uphold a utopian ideal in a  communist stage. The ones with whom I served are no exception to that statement.  All Angels are male since they are made of he, when they chose to roam the earth  when the choice was given to them, they unified and created some of the strongest armies known to man. Off the strength of these armies, nations rose and empires fell. And men mingled with gods, and gods turned into men. I felt a calling to this as we all do, and dove head first into a trap rather than a dream and watch my fantasy disillusioned as man has done to so many of my hopes.  I needed to reconnect, so the plan was simple. Go back to the beginning Vig, and from their you light your path. I was expecting to see more like me, I am as aware of their existence as they are of mine, but only on recognition.  My time in training was a joke, I laughed because it was so easy, my instructors laughed because I was so well suited for the role. We all laughed because we all had a stake in my success, yet we all knew there was nothing funny about my demeanor, and that at any moment I could and probably would lose it.

I demanded respect, I did not ask for it nor did I take it, I demanded it. I could still see the look in my instructors eye when I told him he didn’t need to yell at me to get me to do things. That the more he yelled the more I would not do and we will both be setting each other for failure.  That kind of non sense went on through out my whole training cycle which was in itself a joke that was far from amusing. It didn’t take long, for me to realize that is, that I had made a terrible decision.

WHO we ARE

We were born from aliens..... descended from Gods, destined to conquer created to ascend. Who are we? Who cares? I dont... We are human.. a species so caught up in our past and future that we forget to focus on today. The answers to your questions lie within you as my answers lie within me.. I wish I could explain to you how important the whole is versus the individual.. as a singular you are one piece of me.. I am one piece of you.. we are just one... as one we can accomplish anything... If I love myself I have love for you... I do love you and I hate you when i hate myself... how odd it is God has a sense of humor.. why not we are of his image and I laugh at myself and others all the time.. hell i laugh at you more than anyone else... I..you...we..he she they... only describable because we will it... if i were to take all those words out of the dictionary how would there be a way to describe individualism... hmmm.... MIND WINE!!!! 

Jesse the Body

http://www.jesseventura.net/ So we have a former navy seal and pro wrestler and now governor speaking on some very harsh and interesting subjects... Follow his blog as well with a great line from the movie predator... "I dont have time to bleed" dot com http://weaintgottimetobleed.com/vault/